As you know, normally I reply to all of your fabulous comments, and you will also know that I have struggled in the past with this, so I have decided to admit defeat and I am afraid that I am not going to reply to all of the outstanding comments that I haven't yet answered. Please know that I am very sorry about this, but I have read and loved all of your beautiful and supportive comments as I always do. So please accept this as a collective thank you!
Another thing that has slipped is thanking new followers and visitors and returning to visit your blogs. So again, thank you all for following, new or old followers, and I will get by at some point to visit. I will, I will, I will!!
OK, so housekeeping out of the way! What have we been up to round here. Before we went away there was a frenzy of housework and gardening, as I hate to leave the house unless it is all lovely, as it is so much nicer to return to a clear organised home I think. Then we went away on Easter Sunday! We went to stay in Somerset which is a beautiful part of the country and which allows us to visit one of our most favourite places which is Lyme Regis in Dorset. I could just sit there by the sea and watch the world go by for hours on end. In fact I have said that if I ever go missing, come and look for me there first as that is where I would most likely run to!
There was also a little bit of antique shop browsing and possibly a purchase or two which I will share when I have taken some pictures! As I hinted in my last post we also bought a new picnic cool bag (cooler or esky for those in foreign parts!) and some lovely cotton yarn which I am turning into some mandalas! Sadly my no two the same blanket is a bit neglected at the moment, as I did not work a single stitch of crochet the whole time we were away - despite lugging it off with me!
Mostly we relaxed and just pottered around doing not a lot, driving and looking at the view, sitting and having an ice cream or a drink watching the world go by or slowly browsing round a shop and talking ourselves out of buying things! All in all a pretty good way to spend our time we thought. It was so wonderful to get away from our stresses once we stopped thinking about them.
Sadly we returned to a bit of a firestorm of difficulties and found that those who we had hoped would step up to the plate and look after things while we were gone appeared to have done nothing, so we are back into it all again. However, our time away did make us realise that we have to take a step back and "let" others take responsibility for things - by which I mean force them - as cannot do it anymore all on our own.
Tomorrow I have to complete the first task on our new don't do anything and let things fail into disaster right in front of your eyes plan. I have no idea if I will manage it, and what the outcome will be. It is nearly as scary as it is stressful to actually deal with the issues, but something that has to be done. They say that God only gives you as much as you can handle. If that is the case, God must think that I am a pretty amazing woman. I'm not sure that I share God's optimism or faith in my abilities, but I have to assume that he knows what he is doing and run with it.
I received a beautiful e-mail today which I quote from here (hope that you don't mind, you will know who you are!).
"I try very hard to remain positive and if I can't influence the outcome of things I no longer worry. When I did worry I would feel like a hamster going round in a wheel, thinking and worrying about all different outcomes and possibilities but now I just leave it be if I can't influence it and wait and see what happens. Nearly always it isn't as bad as you think it will be."
I don't know about you but I think that is wonderful. For two reasons. Firstly because it is so true and secondly, which meant more to me in a way, because it means that the way that I feel is normal and others feel that way too! I have been worrying so much that I am over worrying, but it seems that others worry too, so that actually makes me feel much better and takes away one of my worries! Ok, now I am worrying that that makes me sound mad!!! See, a born worrier. If God is testing my worrying abilities, I have passed that test with flying colours I reckon!!
Gosh, I have wittered on here for a long time, so I will leave you all in peace now and I WILL get to some pictures and share with you what we saw and did, but I am taking my time and not rushing, so it might be a little while yet and in dribs and drabs. That has been your advice though and I have realised that I have to take things a little slower, so I am learning something at least!
Hope that all is well with you, my thoughts are with those of you who are having some tough times right now.